PART 4 — WHAT WAS HIDDEN INSIDE THE RED TACKLE BOX

I stared at Colin’s final message until the words blurred.
Mom, Dad knew what Jessica and I did.
My first instinct was to call him.
My second was stronger.
Wait.
Arthur had warned me about signing things.
He had warned me about my accounts.
And now Colin was telling me Jessica could not know he had contacted me.
None of that sounded like a family misunderstanding anymore.
Helen put my phone on the kitchen table.
“You are not flying back there without knowing what this is.”
“I wasn’t planning to.”
“You were thinking about it.”
“I was thinking.”

 

“That is exactly what worries me.”
My phone rang.
Colin.
I let it ring twice before answering.
“Hello.”
“Mom?”
His voice was low.
Almost a whisper.
“Where are you?”
“In the garage.”
“Why are you whispering?”
“Jessica is upstairs.”
I sat down.
“Tell me the truth.”
“I’m trying.”
“No, Colin. You’re trying to control how much truth I receive at one time.”
Silence.
“Start with the box.”
“I found it this morning.”
“You’ve had that box for four years.”
“I know.”
“And you only opened it today?”
“No.”
That answer came too quickly.
My hand tightened around the phone.

“When did you first open it?”
“After Dad died.”
“What was inside?”
“Different things.”
“Stop.”
He went quiet.
“I am seventy-three years old. Do not speak to me like a child you’re trying not to frighten.”
“I’m sorry.”
“What was inside?”
“A notebook. Some old receipts. Bank documents. The letter.”
“The letter addressed to me?”
“Yes.”
“And you kept it?”
“Yes.”
Four years.
My own son had kept a letter from my dying husband for four years.
I closed my eyes.
“Why?”